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A friend inspired me to start this up again.  Man how time changes things and people.  I’m living in NYC, and this doesn’t feel real.  Back in school, and trying to start a real life.  I feel old but know I’m so young.  Fair warning from now on I’ll just be writing whatever comes to my head.  

I’ve noticed a few things recently.  I need to get my shit together, I need to make some better goals, and I need to set the bar higher for myself.  I’ve been reading all my posts from before and have a huge sense of nostalgia right now.  

I miss music, I miss my friends, I miss not having a care in the world, I miss having a dream. I miss my long hair and scruffy face. 

One thing I still know is that I will never settle, I’m going to make it.  I have too much to prove to myself.  Right now nothing is too exciting in my life.  I feel like nothing phases me any more.  It’s great to remember things i’ve done in the past, i’ve been going though old pictures and messages.  Even the things I thought were the end of the world at the time, bring a smile to my face.  

I miss some people who aren’t in my life anymore because I was top stubborn and ignorant to keep them around.  It almost feels as if that person has died. It sucks.  Wherever they are I wish them the best. 

I want a connection.